Well, I found out a couple of things today. I found out my dicks big(ger
than average), I know how to use it, and that I'm a great person to
chill with, but not, apparently, good enough for a relationship. The ♀
I was chillin with suddenly back off from me, without so much as an
explanation; however, this is only a week after sincerely (it felt very
sincere) whispering in my ear, "I think I'm falling for you."
This is why I can't see myself having a relationship….a real
relationship….a meaningful relationship….a long, time withstanding
relationship….a serious relationship.
We didn't have a single arguement, and everything was all smiles. So I'm
clueless as to why this went the way it did. I'll admit, I was close to
making this something more than a casual relationship, but like
clockwork, I get shafted. Lol. Oh well. Back to my original "no serious
relationships" plan, ya dig?
Its all about Ms. Rightnow. It could be all about sex, but I don't
really care about sex 'that' much. And I'm pretty good at running thru
people, cause its someting I've been doing for a while. Torment in
elementary, & 4 high schools made me care A LOT less about whether or
not I form a new bond, so I'm used to it. But being used to something
doesn't make it feel any different. Its just frequent. I frequently
repeat relationships that appear to be moving in a good direction, but
fall very short. Atleast it didn't take another 2 years to figure this
shit out, this time.
….On to the next Ms. Rightnow….
By the way, I also learned that I love my best friend. She's one of the
greatest people I've ever known. She's always been a pillar, and voice
of reason for me. And its a lot for her to do, cause I only chill with
her once every 2-3 years, literally. ILuvU Ms. Allen.
I don't have friends and foes
I have family and enemies